God, my God, I cry out
Your beloved needs You now
God, be near, calm my fear
And take my doubt
Your kindness is what pulls me up
Your love is all that draws me in
I will lift my eyes to the Maker
Of the mountains I can�t climb
I will lift my eyes to the Calmer
Of the oceans raging wild
I will lift my eyes to the Healer
Of the hurt I hold inside
I will lift my eyes, lift my eyes to You
God, my God, let Mercy sing
Her melody over me
God, right here all I bring
Is all of me
Cause You are and You were and You will be forever
The Lover I need to save me
Cause You fashioned the earth and You hold it together, God
So hold me now
~Bebo NormanWell, I am spending the first half of my summer up on a mountain, studying people (Anthropology and Developmental Psych). I think it is so fascinating, and glad to have a break from music for a while. Living here on the mountain means that I am stripped of all the people who have ever defined my life. (in person... thank the Lord for cell phones!) The Lord has stripped my current living situation and heart of all that has brought me joy and companionship for the last year. I have no doubt that the Lord has done this for a reason... to make me seek after Him with all of my heart. The scary part of letting go of things is that I don't know if I will get them back. Some friends are getting married, some may not come back to school, some may never come back into my life. But, what I'm finding is that the right thing at the wrong time is still the wrong thing, and if I continue to hold on to those that the Lord is taking other direction, I will miss out on this great opportunity to be taken out into the desert and wooed by my Savior.. to be molded and shaped into the woman He wants be to be for the task He has laid out ahead of me, whatever that may be. "An unmarried woman is concerned about the Lord's affairs. Her aim is to be devoted to the Lord in both body and soul." 1 Corinthians 7:34
This song by Sanctus Real says it all:
It's time for healing, time to move on
It's time to fix what's been broken too long
Time make right what has been wrong
It's time to find my way to where I belong
There's a wave that's crashing over me
And all I can do is surrender
Whatever You're doing inside of me
It feels like chaos but somehow there's peace
It's hard to surrender to what I can't see
but I'm giving in to something Heavenly
Time for a milestone
Time to begin again
Reevaluate who I really am
Am I doing everything to follow Your will
Or just climbing aimlessly over these hills
So show me what it is You want from me
I give everything I surrender...
Time to face up
Clean this old house
Time to breathe in and let everything out
That I've wanted to say for so many years
Time to release all my held back tears
Whatever You're doing inside of me
It feels like chaos but I believe
You're up to something bigger than me
Larger than life something Heavenly~
"Who may ascend the mountain of the Lord?
Who may stand in his holy place?
He who has clean hands and a pure heart,
who does not lift up his soul to an idol...
He will receive blessing from the Lord
and vindication from God his Savior.
Such is the generation of those who seek him,
who seek your face, O God of Jacob."
Lift up your heads, O you gates;
be lifted up, you ancient doors,
That the King of glory may come in.
Who is this King of glory?
The Lord strong and mighty
the Lord mighty in battle."
from Psalm 24
"Trust in the Lord and do good;
dwell in the land and enjoy safe pasture.
Delight yourself in the Lord,
and he will give you the desires of your heart.
Commit your way to the Lord;
trust in him and he will do this.
He will make your righteousness shine like the dawn
and the justice of your cause like the noon day sun.
Be still before the Lord and wait patiently for him;
do not fret when men succeed in their ways.
....If the Lord delights in a man's way, he makes his steps firm;
though he stumble, he will not fall,
for the Lord upholds him with his hand.
...For the Lord loves the just
and will not forsake his faithful ones.
They will be protected forever.
Wait for the Lord..."
from Psalm 37
Off to work :-)
2 comments:
As long as you live, you will go through deserts and cross mountains. On some of your journey you will have company, on some you will appear alone. God the father will always be present to comfort, strengthen and guide.
One day you will, as we all will, make that last journey that we must make alone. He will be there with you then and can make that journey bearable as he can the one you are going through now. Draw close to Him, so that you will naturally look to Him and no one else. He alone can satisfy, He alone can calm our fears, He alone can comfort our troubled hearts.
that was beautiful, it gives me strength :)
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